6.09.2008
it's just so hard to be fake
it's just so hard to be fake to everything!. . someone pretending as someone you wouldn't become . .feeling things you really don't feel in the first place .. just so hard to be not the real you ..
[sigh]
i thought i am the real me. .i thought i was truthful to myself all the time.. i assumed that every feelings i feel, every words i say, every actions i make are all an end result of who i really am . . but i guess it's just my head saying that "hey that's me or it's me that's why i felt like that, said like this, did whatever blahblahblah" . . but my hearT?!? IDK.
but there are exemptions to this crisis of not-being-me . . i know for one thing and that's my secret i won't tell . . but for the rest - - i need serious help! like terribly needing help - - -
as you are reading this you can't even figure out what i'm trying to say . .coz what i'm saying i guess is nonsense. . and i'm just like going around the bush and just saying things over and over again, and just points out to one thing - that it's really hard to be a fake!!lol . .i'm crazy!
[hmp!]
well, i'll try to be who i really am . . i'll try to be someone true to myself..to everything! i'll just try . . i hope this complicated mind i have is part of not-being-me . .:(
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♥ all about the Author
my name is GENEVEVE
everyone can call me GEN (though EBEB for others close to me)
i'm 21
a BS-Psychology student (hope i won't be eliminated in the program
in a relationship, soon to be married
♥ loves ko mga 'to
bebekoilubkoi
family (mama, papa, ate, ic, xian, lolo's, lola's, aunt joan, tiyo etie, etc..)
friends all over the world
colors black, brown, and white
purple is just memorable
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harry potter books that my sis bought
shakespeare in love
desktop
serendipity
a walk to remember
10 things i hate about you
how to lose a guy in 10 days
other movies (can't enumerate them)
mcdo (esp combo meal = coke float + large fries)
jollibee
baby back ribs
chocolates
yuletide season
birthdays
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